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This is not what I bargained for, not what you lead me to believe.  Hatred drowns me, disdain consuming my soul, just a little longer and it will all be alright.  But we both know that it won't.  You will never release me, never let me go free.  Forgive my failure and praise my persistence.  This is all for you Ana, all you ever asked me to give.  I have sacrificed my soul and fragmented my frame, yet somehow you still remain unsatisfied.  Crumpled in a ball, the pain festering deep within, I am nothing now and nothing will I ever be.  All I ask of you dear Ana is

Tender tousled curls Electric green eyes Your lips the shade of strawberries And just as sweet I dream of you Of me Us But I am not foolish For I know better than to fall You do not want, have no need for me The thing is though It is not nearly that simple Maybe it was the booze Or Maybe it has been this way all along Whatever it may be I still think of you

I like you a lot and I know none of this would have happened had we not been drunk. I wanted to cuddle with you, but Victoria seemed just fine to you. I know you love Maura and don't care about me but I still care about you.  Holding your hand in the car was so easy, so warm. I didn't shake, it was simple. When I look at the hickeys on my neck your face pops up in my mind.  I cried because you said it didn't matter and just forget about it, which I knew you would. I'm foolish, I know, no need to remind me August. But I like you and you just have to know that, despite your feelings and reasoning behind our actions, I'm glad I did what I did wi